Before AwaKeNiN & TrAnSfOrMaTiON i was someone who was drowning in my own never ending chattering mind, ego has me in its grasp had been smothering me mercilessly. Always worried about work, families, friends successful and at the same time trying to find mySelf in a stressful chaotic materialistic egoistic manic world.
That by 10 years old have experience numerous flood, cyclones, volcano and so on that it feels like many life time experience. Have remember when as a 3-4 years old being a skin bones for being in poverty, have light up a match and burn a flower of a grass and asking my sister, who is 1 year older than me, what it taste like, as we were hungry as there was nothing else to eat. Saw the world of dog eat dog for what it is, morality are discarded and where survival are the main drive, survival of the fittest - thrive or perish.
Mum had to work far and away from the family as she become the bread winner after all the breadwinner my father and grandfather died within a year of each other.
The game of life and ego drama does not stop weather you are living in Eastern or Western or religious or non-religious life.
Even after escaping poverty and moving to Australia it was still the same never ending drama.
Become a bartender, where I was introduce to the Bartending’s life where endless drinking, partying, smoking and taking illegal substance is the norm to fit in to socialize and be part of the group. Being a a shy and naïve young man working in a very busy centralise complex, th e lime light can easily get you hook. Have become a chain smoker, where i could easily smoke a packet a day and more when i go out and party. When partying it could go on for days. At very early 20’s years old doctor said the needle pain in your toes it’s because of excessive drinking of alcohol, a sign of being an alcoholic. Tried many times to stop drinking and smoking but with so many parties, peer pressure and friends who just gets you back to the bad habits again it was never ending cycles.
Within a short time i was able to stop drinking, partying, smoking and was able to identify all the negative aspect of myself and able to drop those off including all the friends who has been bring me down.
Had a massive trans-formative effect on myself.
Found easily become vegetarian, no consumption of fish, eggs and quit drinking coffee (two cups every day) despite working in a café environment.
But the most amazing part is a true connection to Quantum Vortex Scalar Wave Photon Pulse 24/7. Tangible evidence within me as am able to Transform and let go of all that is not me and take me instantly to my highest potential. Have never felt my multidimensional Self like it before. You felt nurture, love and one the first thing in the morning and the last thing I could remember when going to sleep.
